My days in Chennai are usually spent wishing that global warming had never happened. Hot and sultry all year round, I am mostly zombie-walking around the place blaming my low productivity on the evil energy sucking heat. Even a slight drop in the temperature would any day be a boon from the heavens.
Within the next 24 hours, I would find myself in Coimbatore, turning my room upside down in the search for my sweater. The fan would perennially be switched off and I would be praying for a slight glimpse of the sun and a mild touch of warmth.
If not anything else, these experiences have only made me realize how vulnerable and limited the human existence really is. Wants, needs and preferences are never absolute and solely exist relative and with reference to a small range of conditions. Most importantly, it conveys strongly how unsteady and fluctuating the mind really can be.
One day, it makes me believe that cool breeze is all that is needed to make my life and the very next it makes me pray that cold be banished from the face of Earth. A slight change in conditions can bring an ABSOLUTE shift in desires and preferences. Scary, if you ask me.
I thought three days of complete solitude would be fantastic. One day down, I am already feeling empty and weird. I am craving some noise and activity and hoping the others get back soon. It seems like I do need a certain amount of human contact and conversation to stimulate my days - however, just a certain amount. Tomorrow, I will again be looking for reasons to excuse myself from the post-dinner chat and get back to my room. I don't need them, yet I need them.
Human existence then boils down to the concepts of "optimum" and "balance". There is a threshold point for living and too much of anything doesn't seem to agree. What strange and vulnerable creatures we are!