I will miss this place - my college.
It might have not been the best of institutions. Yet, I did not want to go to a 'top 10' institution in the first place. It might have not seen me cheerful for most of the time. But I never planned to be unusually cheerful in the first place.
I could, like most of us are tempted to, rant on how this place taught me so much about life and how I met a variety of characters and learnt about people and their ways here. But I think such declarations are stupid. If you have had a lot of lessons and growth in recent times, it does not mean that you had some special chance to get wise or been through exceptionally eventful or testing times. You have simply been alive.
Try talking to some ten people and ask them how life was in the past few years. They might say it was good or bad but they will all unanimously rant about how they learnt a lot and realized a lot of truths about living. "I have changed a lot as a person, you know", they add with self-assumed seriousness. Belief about personal progress is one of the many ways of the mind to guard its self.
It might seem like the world has few people who are really content. Everybody seems to be dealing with personal crises. At surface glance, it is east to think that we are, by nature, an unhappy, stressed out lot. News such as 'Elevating divorce rates' or 'deteriorating quality of family' or 'increasing in flow to counselor's offices' will reinforce this belief. But you know what I believe? We are the most narcissistic species. We simply love ourselves too much for our own good.
We glorify our miseries and we glorify our victories. At the end of the day, few of us will let ourselves down in front of others. Even the man who complains that he is a complete failure will have a justification of why he became a failure. And now that he has exposed his woes to you, he expects attention. Try blaming him for something and he will come out in a surprising retort in self-defense.
If all of us had the skills, there would be a library of autobiographies of every individual who had lived here. It surprised me today that Leo Babauta, the man behind a site such as zenhabits would have a page like this. It came across to me as quite boastful. I might be wrong. But I would expect someone who could write posts like how to forget productivity and just live to consider every moment as an accomplishment. Or rather, every mile covered as a memory to be grateful for. I always thought that the best person in this world will hardly use the word 'I'.
Is it wrong to be proud? No, nothing is wrong. Be proud, be vain, be perverted, be a porn addict, be a compulsive eater, be a lazy couch potato. Nothing is wrong here, of course as long as you do not snatch away another's human being's rightful joys and peace of mind. Yet, consciousness evolves. While it is not wrong to be selfish about a toy while you were seven, it would seem odd to fight over a toy when you are 34. You might ask what is wrong. Nothing. But it is just that, I expect your consciousness to be a bit more evolved.
Making public lists of accomplishments seems odd to me, in a person whom I expect to have evolved consciousness. Or perhaps he has not reached that level yet. That is okay. He is a source of joy to many people around the world and I respect him for that.