Well, how do I start?
It has been a good two months since work started and what I had always presumed turned out to be true - that is, no amount of thinking and contemplating, will ever beat being there and doing it and seeing for yourself. You need to live it to really know it.
I was a bundle of confusions (err.. almost always have been) regarding my 'calling' or career (however you chose to look at that aspect of life). After doing two degrees, each as related to the other as a bat is to a cow, I was feeling the itch to finally spend what I rightfully earned. Yes, spend - perhaps the most hedonistic pleasure of life...something I have never allowed myself to wallow myself in.
For some reason, despite having the best parents in the world (according to me, duh), I have, ever since I can remember, been ridden with huge guilt when it came to spending. So I thought it was high time I stopped forming theories of personality matches with profession and just get my ass up there into the work force.
I bet anyone who even remotely knew me would have laughed their hearts out on seeing the title - 'Social Media Strategist'. Well, that is how 'social' I have been all my life. For the college farewell, every student was given a title. Mine was 'Ms.Missed Call'. For every 10 calls one made to my phone, I would attend just one or two - well, that is how social I was.
For some reason, nothing was more distressing to my existence than hearing that cursed ringtone and picking it to be greeted with a "Heeeeeeeeyyyyyy, whatsaaaaaaaaap?". Well, because inevitably I have never been successful at finding the answer to that question. What is up? Nothing. I mean, yes, a thousand things are up in my head right now but none that I could be able to share with you.
If 'social' meant being kind, courteous, supportive and empathetic, yes, I have had no problems with it and thank god for that. But if 'social' meant being gregarious, high-spirited, funny, loud and bubbling with high powered energy all the time, I was definitely anti-social. Thankfully, my job keeps a good distance from the latter terms.
Still, why social media? I could have readily been a lab researcher, data analyst or science editor and also made a huge success out of it since they are tailor made for the introvert's need for space. Simple - because despite all the resistance to company, it feels so satisfying to be able to reach out to people. Despite all the resistance to participating in crowds, I have always been interested in understanding crowds.
Perhaps they are two different things altogether. The person who always skips the late night parties, might still be extremely interested in reaching out to people through other means...or maybe, it transcends choice and becomes a necessity to reach out to others by alternate means in order to balance himself. I think social media has provided me with that kind of a balance and I love the fact that thanks to it, I CAN reach out to them, interact with them, support them, communicate with them - all the while, maintaining a comfortable distance and having the choice to switch off anytime it gets overwhelming.
I think I love my job and for a long time, I imagined that I would never be able to say this sentence - ever.